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Karen Esbenshade's avatar

I do have a clear sense of purpose, but am feeling the tug by others who want to change my purpose!

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Susan Kuenzi's avatar

There's a verse that says, Happy is the one whose conviction is his or her own.

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Melanie J Wilson's avatar

That cucumber is precious and unpretentious. Perfect really. I believe I have a clear sense of purpose. My energy seems squandered looking back, so I try not to do that. God is speaking to me clearly of late and I admit. Shifting gears has become harder and I need more "adjustment" time. Every day He wakes me up and gives me another merciful chance is truly amazing. 🌻🥒🥒🥒

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Susan Kuenzi's avatar

I love your attitude. Yes, God sure used the cucumber to speak to my heart. I also know that at times I have squandered my energy, and I'm asking God to help me establish a really good rhythm of life following our vacation. Sometimes an emotional reset helps me to recalibrate. I agree....He wakens us morning after morning and we have another day to sit at His feet in wonder ;).

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Kiran Blackwell's avatar

I find inspiration and also purpose in the eastern concept of "dharma" or "right action leading to inner freedom," which for me often ends up in various forms of writing (hence my newsletter on Substack). When I choose and act in attunement with what "right action" is for my particular soul, which is another way of saying "listening to God's whispers," there is a calm joy; when I'm acting out of harmony with it, there is a kind of discomfort, nervousness, or restlessness. It's not always easy, and it can take courage to act dharmically, which includes letting go of expectations. It also means cultivating enough inner awareness and devotion to God to feel it, and when I get neglectful of that cultivation, then I can drift and flounder about for sometimes day or even weeks. An attraction to passive entertainment usually asserts itself during those times!

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Susan Kuenzi's avatar

Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this, Kiran. I like that you have an awareness of this attunement and that you care about your spiritual life in relation to your writing.

There’s a form of journaling called Immanuel Journaling (from a Christian perspective) that I really love and it promotes attunement and secure attachment with God. The brain scientists who laid out this journaling process were also consistent with God’s Word in the way they laid out the process. I really enjoy it, and also a book called The Life Model: Living From the Heart Jesus Gave You.

I could really relate to your comment about being drawn to passive entertainment when you’re off balance. I am writing one chapter on internet addiction as one of the things that can throw people off balance. I liked the book by Cal Newport called Deep Work, and I am making concerted efforts to reduce distractions so that I have the time needed each day for reflection, prayer, and deep focus. This summer I’m doing a project called Writing As Breathing: How Writing Changes Me. You might enjoy participating in the Threads on this theme or being involved in some way. Here’s a link to a summary of the initial reflection questions: https://susankuenzi.substack.com/p/reflection-questions-for-the-collaborative/comments

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Kiran Blackwell's avatar

Yes, I'll take a look at that thread in a couple of days. We're leaving tomorrow to drive up to the WA coast where we escape the heat in the Sierra Nevada Foothills for a few weeks every summer.

With reducing distractions, that's something I'm enjoying about Substack, having been working with it now for six months. I get to read thoughtful essays (like yours) and engage in meaningful conversation (like we are), which doesn't seem possible on other social media platforms where it's all about reacting to meme graphics and sorting through the endless stream of miscellaneous ads.

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Susan Kuenzi's avatar

Enjoy your trip up the WA Coast! We just returned from Alaska and spent a night in Seattle on either end of the trip. Watching sailboats on the Puget Sound and being away from internet for the most part was a wonderful reset. I share that feeling about Substack. I have very little interest in other social media...I just do what's necessary and am glad to create distance from that mindless vortex. I started writing on Substack at the very end of March, and have thoroughly enjoyed this community and the connections I've made. Happy to hear from you and I read one or two of your articles today. It's enriching to hear the perspectives of others. Your lifestyle sounds conducive to writing and reflection, Kiran. Although I know that takes intentionality for all of us these days. I am a fan of C S Lewis so enjoyed your quotes, too. Enjoy your escape. Last fall I attended a writing retreat hosted by my friend in Loyalton, so I loved the Sierra Valley. She showed me pictures this morning of the flames and smoke. Praying for that valley.

Take care!

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Kiran Blackwell's avatar

I was born and raised in the Seattle area and lived my first 36 years there; my wife as well (our 36th anniversary is today, in fact), and all our families are still there. (Oh, if you want to sound like a local, just say "Puget Sound" without the 'the.' :))

Thanks for reading some of my posts. I'm happy to comp you in if you'd like full access to the paywalled posts. I do that just to keep the trolls out.

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Susan Kuenzi's avatar

Fun that you and your wife are both from that area. Thank you. That would be great to be comped in. I only use the paywall to protect things closely related to my WIP.

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